i figured something out

i now know why i like to write fanfictions.
and this really is like a diary input right now,
but i know that only like 4 people read this blog, and yeah.. so no big deal.
BUT ANWAY
i realized that i like to write fanfictions, involving band members and such (as would be seen on www.mibba.com), because i want to write about what my "perfect" love would be, so i write them how i would want to act, and do the things they do, but duh, that's probably why most people do it, but once again, annnnywayyy, i just realized that i only use band members, because the characters need a face, i cant just have a shadow, and i cant make up a character because i could never actually picture it. having a member in a band as this character i create just works out perfectly, because i do find most of them extremely attractive.
BUT WHAT I'VE SRSLY COME TO REALIZEEEE,
and this is kind of the important part...
is that i never want to meet any more of my idols,
i'm afraid of who, or what, they really are.

that is all.
wow, what a pointless blog.
and oh my, this input was so poorly written. :')
stop reading this now!
you have better things to do with your life! :D